poontang

so, i havent posted in a hella long time. i dont know why ive abandoned my livejournal. oh well.
Im sitting here in berkeley waiting for someone to talk to me about signing up for classes at Berkeley city college. its kinda exciting. i kinda took a semester or two off from school, and its made me kinda lazy. anyways, its going to be hard going to school, working full time, and going to Napa to see my boyfriend all the time. i dont know how all this is going to work out. oh well.
anyways, i just feel like typing a shit ton now
OH! I GOT MY PERMIT! ive been driving around the place. if i havent been to your house yet, im sure i'll be at your house soon. ive just been picking people up and driving around. i can drive with someone 18 years or older if they have a license. anyone want to go out driving? i want to. anyways, they just called my name, so i have to go. BYE BYE!

so. I've got a new life, again. I'm barely at my new house, seeing as i have a new boyfriend, and i don't want to bring him around Ryan. oh well. i guess thats how life goes.
I'm seriously falling for this guy though. none of you people know him. he is from Napa.

its hard having a relationship with someone from out of town, now that i work 6 fucking days a week.

what do you want for Christmas/Hanukkah?? please tell me. im getting better at all that holiday stuff.
what do i want for Christmas? a full days rest. it sounds so nice.

so, updates about my work:
ive been late 3 days in a row, which is not usually like me. they are telling me its grounds for termination. such a scary word.
anyways, im allergic to some of the stuff in my store. i was having an allergic reaction to the Sebastian BODY hairspray, so i ran over to Andronicos to drink all the benedryl they had, when i got hit by a car. well, thats a slight exaggeration, but it hit me hard enough to throw me back a few feet. im fine though. i was just glad to get the benedryl. i know, i know. i should've gotten the liscence number of the dumb bitch that hit me. i was in the fucking cross walk, too.
bitch.

anyways, have a nice day! don't know when I'll be on next, seeing as i don't have a computer and all. tell me what you want for Christmas!

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when was the last time you listened to RENT? i love it. cant help myself.

i'll post more about important stuff later, but im on a MAC, and every paragraph or so, keys mesh together and i delete everything. fuckinAAAAAAAAA

oh well. anyone have a PC so i can update?

Peder is a drug i cant get rid of. i know, everyone is sick of me talking about him, but i cant. you dont have to read this if you dont want to. its just me being depressed and ranting.




Every time we are suposed to hang out, he bails on me for at least 3 days, and puts off hanging out for another day. every time. i always believe him, so i change my plans so we can hang out. it always ends up with me sitting at home with nothing to do but cry. so what do i do? listen to our favorite CD. it makes me feel like we are still friends.
he always calls me really late and says something like he is too tired from work and just wants to go home and sleep. i call his other friends to see if he is really going home, and he is always with them instead. i dont trust him at all anymore. i wish i did. i cant do much to bring back our friendship or trust, but i always wish i can.

everyone that knows me knows that i trust easily, and love lots. its just hard now.

i guess im just being depressed. i'll be fine in the morning. all there is to do now is cry. it will all be over later. at lease im not a cutter anymore.

headaches. everywhere. ouch.

i want a cigarette super bad. oh man. just 8 more days to go without a cig. its worth it though. im sure i'll chain smoke after the agreement is over.

although, im sure i'll be hanging around ryan as soon as the cigarette ban is over. which means he will hate me if i smoke.


OH GOD i want a cig. every time i try to quit it gets harder.

time to curl up on the couch and listen to horribly addictive Katamari music.

HO SHIT!!


i got me some piercings!
i got my eyebrow done AGAIN, and 3 more on my ears. its great. im really happy.


'cept that my ear was bleeding for a while, and i didnt really know for a while. i ended up having to peel off hair that had crusted to my ear. no fun. now my pretty blond hair is all redish. ehh. could be worse.

anyways, im gunna have some blood thinners. hurrah!

im siiick. i hope im better for tomara. i godda go to work or im fired. nooooo goooood.

im sad. Peder talked to me yesterday. we had a good talk and all, and we arranged to hang out today. i called him several times. nothing. he didnt even respond to texts. i just called his house, and aparently he decided to get drunk instead. i know everyone is telling me to just stop trying to be friends with him, but its just too hard.

this is the sort of thing that makes me TERRIFIED about comitment. i just cant do it. i promised myself that it wouldnt ruin our friendship. im trying my fucking hardest to keep it working, but he seems to have less regard to my feelings than any other time before. whenever i DO see him, he seems really happy to see me. we always make plans to hang out, but he ALWAYS bails. i hate to sound like a bitch and bring it up to him though.
i really see why people are telling me not to be his friend anymore. im just not strong enough to stop myself.
i really want this to work out. i really do.
this is what makes me want to never date anyone i actually know and like.

ugh.
well, there are people over, and i have to dry my eyes and go back out there. someone will notice that im crying in nicks room if i stay in here too long.

im chillin at gob, about to go to nicks house to watch Pirates. yessss.

it is kinda strange being at someone else's work and using their computer to write messages to people. heh. it makes me want to look at porn or something. just to make it twice as strange. haha.

oh! i kept running into the cute boy who works next to me. its kinda fun. now that im pissed off at males, im surrounded by cute ones. maybe i should try this "boy" thing again. meeh.

oh, speaking of boys, i just remembered i gave some guy my number. everyone is telling me it was a bad idea. i guess ive got to be choosy on how i answer my phone now. people are telling me that he is a douche bag. i dont want any more of those in my life right now. im having lots of fun with the cool new friends. i still love all of my old ones to death, i just needed a good change. yay!

now im just typing for the hell of it. im typing at a funny angle and its not hurting my knuckle. yum.

time to bug people. and talk to my boyfriend (the stuffed animal) <~~ you'd only understand if you went to GOB, or if you were Sarah.

*muah*

PEDER AND KT! you people rock my socks.

thanks for all the beer, homeboy. i loved being drunk all day. im all nice and sober now. dont remember the fine details of the day, but thats probably a good thing.

I love Pirates!


FOR EVERYONE I HUNG OUT WITH TODAY:
im sorry if i hit on you to an obscene amount. thats just what i do when im drunk. anyways, nicks laptop keyboard doesnt agree with my broken knuckle. even those typing classes dont help me with this keyboard. gosh.

anyways, happy birthday. i wish i had seen KT today, but im sure i'll see her some other day.

i know you dont have a livejournal, and probably wont ever see this, but HAPPY MOTHERFUCKIN BIRTHDAY to you, peder! next time ya wanna drink before noon, gimme a call!


i godda stop drinking away my problems, then hanging out with the problem the following day.
damn.
i need a hug.

i was entirely too drunk too early in the morning. the bars weren't even open yet. dear lord. this entire day is kinda a blur of beer. i remember drinking 2 40's of Corona, and a few more, and singing happy birthday to Peder.

its too hot out today. i wish it was colder. the beer makes me want to go visit everyone. i want to be out and about! not sitting in a fucking chair in a hot house. oh well. i have a movie i wanted to show my friend, so i think i might get up off my lazy ass and take it to him. its fantastic. for those of you who know what im talking about, its Pirates.


ahh, i love porn.


^_^

and beer



i haven't had gin in a while. i think its due time for a chat with my good old friend Bombay. yuuuummmmmmmmm.

am i going to remember this later? im ranting now, huh? aight. i'll shut up now.

oh god. the day was awesome, untill nightfall.

ive been hanging with a new crowd recently, so ive been seeing new people.

anyways, i went to a party a few weeks back, and met some new people. i guess i led some people on, but i really didnt mean to! one of the people i met at the party just told me he liked me. im not really up for another relationship now. i liked someone, but that didnt work out (im not too sad about it. got over it in a few minutes) but after thinking about it, i guess im not up for a relationship after all. im horrible at telling people NO, but i had to. i mean, he is a great guy, and if it wernt for all of what just happened, i might end up liking him. but, its really hard for me to admit, im really scared of commitment.
im REALLY bad with relationships. i godda know someone for a really long time before im willing to let them in.

im glad i went through someone telling ME no, because i found out how bad a relationship would be right now.

its so hard for me to say no though. i dont like hurting peoples feelings. especially if they are my friends. ugh. now i feel like i was using him or something. am i a bad person?

god, i need something to drink. preferably with high alcohol content.


need some rum and sex. that always fixes everything.

i shouldnt be depressed though. i should be happy. i have good friends, and i know they have my back, even though ive only known most of them only a few months.

i know some of you have already seen these, but you've just godda see them if you havent already!






CANT WAIT FOR ZOMBIES!! *gunna see Resident Evil 1 and 2 tomara night!* eeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

why would anyone in their right mind start drinking at 10am? oh thats right. me, peder and sadaf. ya know what? drinking this early in the morning is actually kinda fun. anyways, there is another Screwdriver, so i'm going back to that.

sorry ahead of time if i call you

there is a house on San Pablo ave at 65th for $550 a month. small balcony, big room, chill people, above a store, HELLA fucking cool. anyone wanna share with me? ive got a job, and all that good shit.

im going to be calling them tomara around 4ish. text/call/message me here if you want to join in on the fun.


p.s. not too important for me, but its 420 friendly. (cuz i know how manny of my friends are stoners. haha)

i went to my first party this weekend. i dont remember going to sleep, i was so drunk. yay. this is the first time in a while i havent had sex with someone when i got drunk. go me! self restraint is getting better. anyways, the party was fun. im starting to realize i dont really need cigarettes except for when im drunk. i chain smoke like a dirty whore when im drunk. no good. meh.

anyways, im happy. my pay check will come in a few days and getting out of debt is first on my priority list. good shit.

quitting cigarettes for the third time is going to be a little rough, although the people i really like to hang out with now dont smoke anything (im guessing it might make it a little easier.)
its hard to give up old habbits. especially the illegal ones. but, the people i hang out with now dont care too much for that illegal smokeables, so i think im going to try to stop it. or at least do it rarely. meh.


on a SCARY note, RESIDENT EVIL comes out on the 21st!! I CANT FUCKING WAIT!! who wants to go with me? im gonig to watch the second one before i see the third one though. havent seen it yet. i'll rent it if i can go to someones house to watch it!

you'll like it. i swear. Goldie Lookin Chain - Your Mothers Got A Penis

i just wasted a whole day off. go me. i didnt see any friends but my ex. i should really get out more.

its that time of the year again!!
JEW NEWYEARS!! we dont get fireworks over here. so sad. time to set our own off? yes. and sing shit in hebrew.

HeJEW

^_^ im really amused by anything and everything today. im not saying no to anything eather.
mom asked me to pick up the dog shit in the front yard, and i actually was happy doing it. (well, i took the radio out there, danced around, picked up shit, washed the cars, realized i was wearing all white and was wet so i changed, and i washed the dog)
who else has a house to clean? i'll come clean it tonight if you get me out of richmond!!!



p.s. i cant get some of the awesome blood and gore out of my mind from the new Resident Evil trailor i just saw!! no sleep for me tonight, huh? unless i sleep next to someone. whose house can i stay at tonight?




seriously. can i stay at your house tonight?

the past 3 movies ive watched this past week were awesome!!! i saw Snatch, Shoot Em Up, and 300.
all were awesome in completely different ways.

Shoot Em Up was SUPER FUCKING COOL! i was at nicks house with Sarah from work, and we were watching Sin City and all that good stuff. Nick told us that Shoot Em Up was by the same director, so we (me and Sarah) decided to go out and see it. it was super cool!!! i wish Rosario Dawson was in it though. im sure they could've made her some super sex bomb lady or something. i dunno.

i don't even know why im trying to type this early. even talking to people this early in the morning is mostly incomprehensible mumble-jumble. heh. anyways, i guess its time to sleep, before i end up trying to stay up and watching another movie or try to call the only number i have on me at the moment (i dont have my cell phone)
geh. goodnight! anyone who wants to contact me at the moment, leave a message here and i'll try my best to check it as often as possible!
goodnight!
love ya!